I find I am unable to focus on multiple projects at once. Multi-tasking between creative platforms seems beyond me, and so while I’m immersed in the world of acting, my writing becomes the forgotten child crying for attention.
It feels like I’ve been in rehearsal for forever, there are so many characters living inside me, like multiple personalities, that it’s beginning to feel a bit over crowded. It’s a high-class problem, but my writing child is crying louder and louder and it’s getting harder and harder to put her back to bed. I’ve got one more play, one more character to bring to life before I can slip out the backstage doors of the theatre and bring my writing child out to play again.
Finding balance is always a challenge for me. Living a creative life can be exhausting instead of fulfilling. As an actress I never know when the next gig is going to come, each job feels like it might be the last, each opportunity too good to pass up.
I’ve gone from Queen Margaret in Henry VI and Mistress Page in Merry Wives of Windsor, to Blanche DuBois in Streetcar Named Desire, to Annie in Alan Ayckbourn’s The Norman Conquests. Great characters, all of them! And now I’ve been given the opportunity to bring a character to life for the very first time in a two-hander written by a wonderfully gifted playwright friend of mine for the upcoming Vancouver Fringe Festival. Grace, in the world premiere of Slumming, written by Barbara Ellison.
I’ve gone full out since early spring doing what I absolutely love, and jumping with both feet off the highest cliff into my deepest fears and my biggest, thickest blocks. And I really feel in need of a deep rest. This month of rehearsals and production meetings, heading towards our opening night September 6th, I’m working to find balance. Giving myself permission to sit quietly and read out-side, surrounded by my over-run garden and allow my physiological, spiritual and creative batteries to recharge. Finding balance. Creativity needs some alone, quiet time. Simmering time. Meditation. Balance.